Dear me, myself, and I,

Time flies so fast. Day after day it runs so fast too. Morning changes night. Suddenly it was February in 2019. Internships will end up being replaced by new assignments. Time doesn't care. It always keeps going.

After brooding long enough, if I stop, maybe I won't get here. If I don't keep learning, maybe I won't meet any good things. Whether it's knowledge, opportunity or even new friends. Change also made me realize that I had come this far. If I don't work hard and don't sacrifice this or that, I might be stuck. People said there must be time. But if it's not interspersed with some efforts, will we get to our goals?

After entering the age of 21, I am more often reading self-improvement books. I think I'm eager to try more new things. Perhaps more precisely want to enrich myself with a variety of new insights. It's true if the 20s are looking for an identity. I felt that much and I got many new things unexpectedly when I was 20. 

"Time doesn't provide happiness, nor can it be saved. Our time is intertwined in a complex network of social relationships. Only we are responsible for our own happiness". - Cho Jung Hwa-

The key in my life: be grateful.

Greetings from me (at the age of 21) for myself in the future.

Dear me, myself and I,

Tonight, I feel very tired of everything. The mind, heart, and even mentality feel the same way. Suddenly I cried, I felt very dizzy and my body felt weak. I don't know exactly why this happened. Is this a sign that I'm at the lowest point? Did I really get bored with this routine? But my conscience said that there was no boredom. Tired. Many times my brain and heart said tired, tired and tired. My emotions overflow. And is this a sign that I'm at the lowest point?


Previously I also felt the same way, but not as bad as this. Do I have to find something new? But what? Do I have to meet the easy going people? But who? All questions passed through my mind. However, there is one thing that never goes even though many times the word "tired" resides in my heart and mind.


SPIRIT.


My condition like this also does not eliminate my enthusiasm. So every time I feel the worst, suddenly this spirit arises. This spirit seems to make me have to keep fighting, I have to keep going. Even though I might be falling apart, this feeling never disappears. Therefore, I am sometimes surprised by myself.

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Then what does this mean to make me cry and even dizzy? I pondered again. Maybe I really need time for myself without thinking about hard things. Maybe I also need to meet people who give me positive energy. Maybe I should put my gadget to feel real life more. Maybe I should be more grateful for what I have lived and what I have gotten. After talking to myself, now the feeling of "this" begins to disappear. I am sure that everyone has felt something like this. However, those who have felt this must have their own way to get back up.


I felt myself completely and relieved again. Just listen to your heart and be yourself, Shei. 

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